dear depression diary,
the last few weeks have been both satisfying and heartbreaking (stay tuned for the three-part hiatus post coming soon!), and I can’t lie – I was starting to get really off track with school. I was ready to withdraw from my classes and try again next semester because the pressure to make time after everything that has happened just felt impossible.
but fate has a funny way of putting things back in perspective.
the little humans and I were out making deliveries today; we’re having a good time singing songs and whatnot as we make our way to the drop off address. and as I get off the exit I notice the sign says UMBC .. y’all! my first delivery took me straight to the college I plan on attending when I’m done with my associate’s degree. the right words just do not exist to accurately describe how COMPLETE I felt in that moment. it was like the universe felt my struggle and guided me back to the path I’m supposed to be on. as I listened to my little humans singing in the backseat, hearing their joy, feeling the happiness that just seeps out of them – I remembered who I’m doing this for.
of course, I’m doing it for myself. the written word will always be my first love, and I can’t wait to start my career as a journalist/writer. but ultimately, this is all for them. to provide for them and give them the life I always dreamed they would have.
as I’m driving through the campus, I notice they have preschool for students with children, so their kids are close by learning while they’re learning. family housing!! and even though I’m happy where I am not, it was so reassuring to know that I have options. it was a reminder that even when I feel defeated, there is always a way to overcome.
so here I am, writing this post before I get back on my grind.
lesson of the day: the road may be bumpy at times, but life always has a way of taking you exactly where you’re meant to be. goodnight xoxo