i refuse to let it in
this feeling, these thoughts
of never seeing you again
it might actually kill me
my whole life you’ve been there
with kind words and endless love
one of the few who really cared
what will this world be without you?
I am scared, absolutely terrified
that the sadness will never leave
once I let it inside
but I have to, I must
not only for my sake
but for my little humans
who would bear the toll it takes
so I will try, to cry and grieve this loss
knowing damn well it will tear me apart
knowing damn well it will break my heart.