I shouldn’t remember this as vividly as I do .. August 2007 was so long ago. but you, I still see these moments with you like it’s the first time I laid eyes on you.
I was always a social butterfly, so being the new girl never took me out of my element. there was a part of me that almost said no when she asked me to come to the pool with her and meet her friends; I didn’t need her help, I was just fine on my own. looking back, I can’t imagine what my life would have been like if I had declined and stayed home.
I remember it being so crowded; everyone enjoying the last few days of freedom before the school year started. so many bodies that there wasn’t an empty chair in sight – barely room to stand – but as I scanned the crowd I saw you. in those seconds when our eyes met, you filled me with a feeling so foreign it was magnetic. as she introduced me to everyone, my eyes kept wandering back to you.
a beautiful cliche of dark and brooding.
I’ll never forget the look on everyone’s face when I sat in your lap, or listening to you whisper ‘dead puppies’ over and over again. your attempt at innocence was so cute and just made me like you that much more.
‘do you want me to move?’
my intent was not to make you feel uncomfortable and I was happy to stand if that’s what you really wanted. on the other hand, I was relieved when you told me I was fine where I was. our eyes met again when I looked at you, smiled, and saw you smiling back. I didn’t move from that spot the rest of the afternoon. we all talked and laughed and said we’d do it again before summer ended. when we said goodbye, I was hopeful- but that would be the beginning and the end of our poolside shenanigans. by the time school started, we were doing our own thing and in completely different circles.
august ’07 was just the beginning.