entry #24

happy 2022! less than a month into the new year and things are already looking up. 2021 taught me so much! I learned a lot about the value of time spent with loved ones and the importance of letting people know when they’re on your mind. there’s never a wrong time to tell someone what…

entry #23

dear depression diary, first of all, I hope everyone who celebrated thanksgiving enjoyed the holiday. I can honestly say some QT with my family was healing in so many ways. I think I’m back, definitely doing better. the well wishes from you all meant so much to me, it’s been a rough year, but I…

entry #22

dear depression diary, I am so utterly broken. I’m tired of people dying around me. I’m tired of having to explain those deaths to my kids. I’m emotionally and mentally exhausted, to the point that I am numb. when I found out about my grandfather, I couldn’t cry. not a single fucking tear. I could…

entry #21

dear depression diary, thinking back, I can’t believe there was ever a time when I didn’t prioritize myself. I always have been and (probably) always will be–a people pleaser. if there’s one thing I wish I could tell my younger self is to make sure she puts her energy into people who will put that…

entry #20

dear depression diary, one thing I have learned over the last couple of years is that I am worthy. once upon a time, there was someone in my life who would constantly tell me that no one else was ever going to “put up with me” the way he did, that no one would ever…

entry #19

scroll down for one of my #onrepeat songs no surprise here, I’m self- sabotaging again… let me just start by saying that this is only the second healthy romantic relationship I’ve had in the fourteen years since I started dating and more than half of the time I feel like it’s too good to be…

entry #18

dear depression diary, sorry for my absence, a full course load is seriously kicking my ass – but I’m determined to graduate next summer so ya girl is putting in that WERK. I had a few minutes to spare in between assignments so I thought I’d do a quick update on my mental, physical and…

entry #17

dear depression diary, this entry is long overdue. admittedly, I think I’ve started three or four ‘entry #17′ and never finished or posted a single one. this summer was a difficult one, filled with so many setbacks and heartbreaks that it was hard to talk about. shit, I’m still coping from my losses and haven’t…

entry #16

dear depression diary, it’s been a while, but today is already the worst I’ve had in a while .. for starters, little A woke up with a stomach virus. she’s always so bubbly and full of life so to not have the house filled with her voice is just bringing my mood down. I’m glad…

entry #15

dear depression diary, the last few weeks have been both satisfying and heartbreaking (stay tuned for the three-part hiatus post coming soon!), and I can’t lie – I was starting to get really off track with school. I was ready to withdraw from my classes and try again next semester because the pressure to make…