dating with depression

forming a family unit

22 things I want to do in 2022

going into this new year, there are so many things I want to do with the next 365 days. the possibilities are endless, but these are the things at the top of my 2022 bucket list: 1. read 6 books every semester I find it harder and harder to read for leisure. so many of…

cheers to the new year

dear Father Time, I’m torn, because, while I have a few bones to pick with you, I am also grateful for the abundance of love that surrounded me over the last year. through the best and the worst of times, there is so much to look back on and appreciate. january my motherfucking birthday month!…

entry #23

dear depression diary, first of all, I hope everyone who celebrated thanksgiving enjoyed the holiday. I can honestly say some QT with my family was healing in so many ways. I think I’m back, definitely doing better. the well wishes from you all meant so much to me, it’s been a rough year, but I…

entry #22

dear depression diary, I am so utterly broken. I’m tired of people dying around me. I’m tired of having to explain those deaths to my kids. I’m emotionally and mentally exhausted, to the point that I am numb. when I found out about my grandfather, I couldn’t cry. not a single fucking tear. I could…

entry #21

dear depression diary, thinking back, I can’t believe there was ever a time when I didn’t prioritize myself. I always have been and (probably) always will be–a people pleaser. if there’s one thing I wish I could tell my younger self is to make sure she puts her energy into people who will put that…

entry #18

dear depression diary, sorry for my absence, a full course load is seriously kicking my ass – but I’m determined to graduate next summer so ya girl is putting in that WERK. I had a few minutes to spare in between assignments so I thought I’d do a quick update on my mental, physical and…

suppression

i refuse to let it in this feeling, these thoughts of never seeing you again it might actually kill me my whole life you’ve been there with kind words and endless love one of the few who really cared what will this world be without you? I am scared, absolutely terrified that the sadness will…

entry #17

dear depression diary, this entry is long overdue. admittedly, I think I’ve started three or four ‘entry #17′ and never finished or posted a single one. this summer was a difficult one, filled with so many setbacks and heartbreaks that it was hard to talk about. shit, I’m still coping from my losses and haven’t…