playlist to my love life

admittedly, this one goes at the top of the list because my SO and I have a mutual love for miss lauryn hill ❤ thanks to our cultured mamas and being born in the best decade for hip hop music – 90s babies where you at??- we grew up on soulful music like this. no…

lingerie.

Lingerie the silky floral-patterned cloth you rip off of me                 then you let your fingers linger  like the smell of your cologne                 fresh out of the shower down on me like the rain during spring                 when the flowers blossom into this person that comes alive                 whenever I’m with you

rest, assured.

your love language may be acts of service, but you are a man of words how is it that I forgot to love you the way I love to be loved? the way that you love me you know deceit and betrayal as well as I do maybe even on a deeper level I should…

weigh station

the day we met we were just a boy and a girl stranded at a weigh stationwith baggage heavier than either of us could have known we were just two people with weary heartslow expectations, but hopeful all the samefor something better than we’d known before we were so different but still the samecrippled trust…

entry #12

dear depression diary, nothing exciting to report, I just came here to say I have the most amazing (not) boyfriend. so it’s getting close to nine o’clock here and I’ve already started three posts that I just can’t finish. not because I don’t have anything to say, but because I just could not get my…

valentine’s voicemail

but I do love you and at the end of the day honestly honestly, honestly, honestly by the number of times I just said honestly you honestly should know I mean it

the discovery.

whirlwind passion that knocked me off my feet just to fall into the colorful floral garden that is your mind your emotions as intricate as a maze I didn’t mind getting lost in, as long as I got to know every piece of you the walls around your heart are as high as the tsunami…

babylove.

with the blade in my wrist, I welcomed death with open arms. I was done with this life, lost on how to exist now that he was gone. and then I thought of you. you never told me “it’s okay. he’s in a better place now”. you didn’t push me to faith or rush me…

him.

his smile is as wide as mine, and I love it his heart is bigger than I expected it to be he is the light that shines bright enough for his darkness and mine. he is everything I never knew I’d need. he loves my little humans as if they were his own without questions…

the reasons.

the reasons are endless in theory. for every reason I say out loud there are a dozen more that go along. each more specific than the one before; the reasons are endless. my love, I adore all the little things. your actions and words all aligned, and for the first time in a long time…