through the eyes

through the eyes 
     where the magic lies
bringing to life
     all the beautiful sights 
from vibrant hues
      to the dullest blues
the eyes behold
      as our lives unfold

through the eyes
      where the magic lies
all the memories 
      of you and me 

restless.

restless is the heart, so lonesome, it aches

with a longing so intense it’s hard to bear

piece by piece, until it finally breaks

and I wonder, if you knew, would you care?

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restless are the endless nights that I lay

staring at the empty space where you slept

wishing for the warmth of your embrace

and the safe feeling I got as I dreamt

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restless is the mind that wonders each night

how you’re doing and what you’ve been up to

my phone vibrates and I’m hoping it might

be you, missing me, the way I miss you

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just as my eyes adjust, I read your name

my heart confirmed, because you feel the same

the reasons.

the reasons are endless in theory. for every reason I say out loud there are a dozen more that go along. each more specific than the one before; the reasons are endless. my love, I adore all the little things. your actions and words all aligned, and for the first time in a long time I am sure that the intent is true and good. there is no doubt in my mind that my heart is safe, you are kind and handle it with care – the fragile little thing. more important than that is the way you are with the little humans. for so long its just been me and me alone, prioritizing and grinding and making a way for us on my own. so when I hear you use words like “us” “we” and “our”, it warms my heart something fierce. without a word uttered, you stepped right in; to hold a place the little humans had been missing for a while – its written in their smiles… and in yours. faces lit with happiness and love, you go above and beyond to make sure they never feel that missing piece again. you call them “the kids” and speak to them about the future, always remind them that everything you do is purely out of love and a want for them to be better than they are today and better than we were then. you are patient and consistent and present even when you’re not; and every time we are apart, you let us know that we are missed until we are together again.

the reasons are endless in theory. for every reason I say out loud there are a dozen more that go along.

our fights are more like heated discussions, you listen to me and I listen to you. even when it’s hard to do, we still manage and we talk things through. it has always been me, screaming until my throat was sore and my voice was as nonexistent as I felt. you are such a nice change of pace, I would not trade you for anything. when you cook, I clean and visa versa. you include the little humans so that they learn the basics at an early age. when you sense I am tired and a little overwhelmed, you are right there to relieve the pressure. you watch cocomelon until the little girl falls asleep in your arms and talk superheroes with the little boy to his heart’s content. your childlike manner is comforting and endearing because you get down on the little humans level just like I do, instead of trying to bring them up to yours. they say “I miss you” when you are away and “I love you” every morning and night that you are here. your response is effortless and sincere every time, they know it and so do I. you are everything we needed and more than we ever thought we would have.

the reasons are endless in theory. for every reason I say out loud there are a dozen more that go along. each more specific than the one before; the reasons are endless.